I'm now a fan of jdoramas (jdramas)... after watching Nodame Cantabile it will be hard to go further than the feelings I got by looking at it, mostly because it was artist's related, musicians, but artists in the end, today I finished watching a new dorama that a friend told me to look for:

"Hanazakari no kimi tachi e "
wich I guess it's the famous HanaKimi

I cried in the last secuence because I realized that thanks to this dorama I was able to remember my happiest days at school wich I didn't remember. Sadly it all ended up in a big mess up and with me not talking with a lot of my past friends, but I'll never regret the times I had with them... It hurts to think a lot of things some of my friends made, but when we were friends friends, it was all ok... I just forgot about that and it was great to remember... I think that this was fate, because last night I dreamed about one of my best friends, who ended up in a very big fight with my boyfriend 3 years ago... After that everything splitted up in very wrong ways and I ended up looking as if I betrayed my own friends, I tried to keep everything in peace, but I was given a guilt that I didn't deserved from everybody. Again, standing in the middle is not my strong point, and after that, everybody who I considered as a friend stopped talking to me and they all started to try to fight with my boyfriend and his friends. Sad, isn't it? In the end my boyfriend's friends ended up being the ones who were more supportive than my oldest friends...

Watching that dorama made me recall that my almost 5 years at university in a wrong career ended up being other of my most special times in my life... despite how it ended, the times with all of them were amazing, I'm sad because I didn't have the strenght to go and pursue my dream back then, but I'm happy that I met each one of this guys in this wrong career... I feel weird because lately I really find some tv shows very similar to what I'm going through, it helps me to think that I'm not that crazy to feel confused or sad... those are inspirations for people to create amazing stories where they tell you that everything is going to be fine, even if you make mistakes or even if things don't go the way you wanted or expected, if your heart is in it, you will be ok...

Right now I'm happy to say that I finally remember my beautiful school days because I kept forgetting about them, I was feeling empty because my long-term memory always fails, remembering things is hard, but feelings remain and this feelings bring me back to where I spent some beautiful times ^^

Sorry for being so sentimental right now... I also went to say hi to my art teacher, I wasn't able to go since october, he helped me to clearify my doubts about how to prepare my paintings for a gallery show, I also asked him to be my first curator, so I hope I can fill his expectations and be good enough to be considered for a gallery show with his blessing

And well, I believe that I will say goodbye for like 3 weeks, things need to be finished and time is not enough already... Thank God I received one more commission, and sadly a camping trip got cancelled so I will be attending the anime con in a week, so i need to prepare my entry for the drawing contest >.< I'd love to use my original characters, but I don't have enough definition on their designs... Lets see how this goes

Prepare yourselves for a good load of custom ponies, paintings, aceos and hopefuly more pony drawings and a manga for june!

And as I heard in hanakimi: Full bloom flowers don't last forever, go and enjoy yourselves fully in the present!

Got to love japanese phrases! so motivational, simple and so true ^^

Hopefuly I'll update this journal with advances about my works, thanks everybody for the amazing support!!

Love
Diana
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